Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Wishing all my Muslim friends Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

A long weekend

Raya is just around the corner, it's going to be a very long weekend. The road is going to be empty as well weee. Everybody is busy going back to their kampung. I used to work over the public holidays in Kota tinggi Resort, it's the most busiest days of the year. You hardly get any rest for yourself. As early as 7am in the morning your day will not end till midnight.


After 3 years, me and my husband decided to leave the resort. Now in Kl my present job doesn't required me to work on public holiday. So I'm stuck here thinking what should I do during those holidays. I'm so used to working on public holidays. Other than visiting to friend's open house there's nothing much to do actually, other than making holes in your pocket. The pendemic H1N1 is not helping as well, my general well being does not allow me to go anywhere either. Gee looks like I'm stuck at home adding some kilos around my girth. Oh well!!

Change my template again

Today i am in not mood to go out anywhere. a lazy sunday i must say. While waiting for my dear hubby to come back home from Johor Kota Tinggi, i decided to change my blog layout again. i tought i'll tried something very different. the network line is very bad, i kept being disconnected from the net..i feel like screaming..so frutrarted. after a long 2 hours i finally finish with my new blog layout. nothing fancy, just different in sort of way.

Enough with Facebook

i decided to stop "facebooking" for awhile, just the sight of it makes my stomach churn. yes I'm serious i don't know why, but to see the facebook interface is enough to make me feel nauseating. I guess having too much to do with Facebook for a good 1 and half year is enough to make my life being off the socket.

From facebook, now i'm busy with my blog. There's nothing much to update actually, i'm still blurr about what to write about. gotta get something interesting to write. i finally change my layout though. After surfing through some of the free templates available on the net, I rest with this one cute and adorable (ahem-ahem if anyone notice yet ;) ...).


i actually had another blog which i kept it anonymous. whenever i feel unhappy (mostly) i'd only post something there. i dont know whether any of you read or seen that blog, i think i kept it "private mode"

oh well, will updates some soon, maybe pictures.. hmmm.. i think i know what to post..but i'll wait until the right time..will keep you posted!

I once was lost but now I'm found

Ever wonder or thought about how your life turns around not the way you have expected?...is it better? worst?..but come to think of it, life goes on there's up and down, there's always better and worst, it's how you learn and go through with it.

I have a confession to make i used to be a person who is lack of spirituality. Going to church was only a routine thing for me, and very often my heart does not always stays in where it should be. I'm sure it happen to a lot of us.

It became worst when i started my study in KL. There was a moment where totally lost my faith in Him, I even feel that He does not care or love me at all. It was painful experience i had to go through and being reserve kind of person i don't share my problem to anybody even to my parents, because i don't want them to get worried over my problem that I created myself.

Well, I believed my family and friends love me so much they always pray for my well being. Sometimes when bad things happens, it happens for a reason, I guess it just a way God trying to reach back to us, and I believed it took a great impact in our life for us to stop and realizing that you have become an idiot all this time. I started to realize that I'm not living the life that I should be and because of that "incident" (which i wouldn't want to elaborate here, it would remain in my heart) it changed my life forever.

Well life does not end there, there will always be challenges, it's up to you to decide how you want things to end up to be. Now I constantly ask for God's guidance in everything I do, He will and always be there for you no matter what, all you need is to have faith in Him. God had showed me so many wonderful things in life. When you're in God's grace, you will never feel fear or worried for He is there to guide you.

Classic Song

"Somewhere Over the Rainbow"

Somewhere over the rainbow Way up high, There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby. Somewhere over the rainbow Skies are blue, And the dreams that you dare to dream Really do come true. Someday I'll wish upon a star And wake up where the clouds are far Behind me. Where troubles melt like lemon drops Away above the chimney tops That's where you'll find me. Somewhere over the rainbow Bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow. Why then, oh why can't I? If happy little bluebirds fly Beyond the rainbow Why, oh why can't I?

Lucky Me

"Lucky" - a word so deeply meaningful to me. i feel so blessed and thankful. though it takes a great effort and painful experience, but i feel blessed and lucky to be able to go through. i discover myself better and learn more about life (and still learning) i would call my self very lucky.

I have been listening to this song over and over again for the past 1 week. It's just a beautiful song. i just love every single word.

Lucky - Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat

Do you hear me talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my,
baby I'm tryingBoy,

I hear you in my dreams
Hear your whisper across the sea
Keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhh oohhhh ohh ooohh ooohh oooh oooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I wait for you I promise you,
I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I put a flower in your hair
And though the breeze is through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see

As the world keep spinning round
You hold me right here right now
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh